--always on my mind--

2009-06-26T17:33:00.003+08:00

watched 我愛黑澀會.
我愛黑澀會 2009-06-24 美眉另類排行榜!
meimei's part was the creepiest.
it's about top 3 songs that are creepiest when listen at night.
they pointed out that 七十二变, there is a part where you will hear a little girl calling 哥哥.
i swear when we heard it, me and my sister were freaked out.
it's damn obvious. but to think that we didnt notice it when we have listen to that song for dont know how many donkey times.
i know about some other songs.
like, 潘美辰's i forgot the song title.
but there's this part that we can hear a little girl calling 姐姐.
show's 我不会唱歌 is the most classic one.
there are a few oldies which i've forgotten the titles.
there are parts where we can hear things.
泥娃娃 is also quite creepy when listen at night. like asif you can feel all your dolls in your room coming alive.
蔡琴's 被遗忘的时光
是谁在敲打我窗.
ISNT THAT CREEPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! machiam someone knocking on your window when you're living at 7th storeys!
heard this story from taiwan prog before.
that there's this bunch of people, they went ktv.
and happily they sing.
but there is this song 说爱你.
they have been waiting for this song.
strangely, the song wasnt on the list.
however how many times they had chose it.
then they decided to ask for bill and leave.
the moment they stepped out of the room.
the song 说爱你 came on the tv.
and it sings 还窃喜你没发现我躲在角落.
meaning to say that, the "thing" has been hiding at the corner.
wah laos!
dont know true onot.
but still its FREAKY.

were talking about ORBS on wed with yunlih,huiru,kelvin and stephen.
then we went C419.
the room was locked.
and was pitch dark when we looked thru the glass pane on the door.
then we decided to do smth stupid.
hahas. we took pictures through the glass pane.
wanting to see if we can capture anything.
we tried using our phones.
suddenly we saw smth on stephen's picture that he had just taken.
it looks like an orb.
so we zoomed in to see whether, theres face on the orb.
me and yunlih and stephen were able to see.
but kelvin and huiru were slow. :P
also dont know isit really orb.
kelvin say its like perceptions thingy.
:P

this is the thing that we have to do for BES2100.
gonna start a post on that tml.
so guys, if you see a banner showing

means that that entry is for my module assignment.
please skip it . :D

2009-06-23T00:27:00.006+08:00

sunday.

papa's day!
went for celebration at sembawang.
6 families. 3 tables.
:D
the main leads are all the papas.

little present for my papas.
this is a fake bread.
we intend to bluff our daddy to eat.
but when he took it out, he saw my grandmother winking her eyes.
then he knew it was a prank!
hahahahahas!!! damn lahs!!
we purposely put it in a container to act asif that it's made by us!

my sister set her "lover"'s pic as our contact image.
so whenever she call us, this pic will appear asif shes calling him.
so.
i did the same tihng.
only that, mine is du de wei.
hahahas. i will ask her to call me and act asif du de wei call me.
:P

MY FAV!
LOBSTER!
i ate 3/4 of the dish.
cos everybody's full.
:X yummy!!!!

perfect angle! *smirks* :X

yeahs. my family members.
not all members came.. i tink only around 15 or so...
:/

i'm glad that we're finally solving the misunderstanding.
(:
seriously i miss the times we had.

2009-06-22T18:24:00.002+08:00

emptied.
define motivations.
generalise life.
specify love.
its all emptied.
people come, stayed and left.
passerbys.
which of those can really give the answers to the above.
none.
flipping up the coin.
however it directs, emptied.

2009-06-20T17:19:00.015+08:00

YTD
went to bugis.
acc juan to pray.
then went school tog.
same timing.
had auditting lll.
CANNOT TAHAN.
beside me was eric and pohseng.
i was in the middle.
eric kept on disturbing me writing shits on my coursebook.
irritated!!
pohseng was telling me yi nan wang started. yi nan wang finished already.
wah laos.
then went juan's class to find her and zy.
zy then drove us juan and carrie to hougang point to have sakae!
WE WERE SERIOUSLY DAMN HUNGRY.
then zy say he will speed.
then carrie said: "eh DON WAN! i rather die with full stomach! i dont want be hungry ghost"
LOLS!!!!!!!! wth~

we ordered a table full of food!
were too hungry~
then crapping around
discussing about "BEING SHELVED"!
talking about zy's WEAKNESS.
juan was laughing like some siao lang lahs. LOLS
HAPPILY, we went to bill.
and to NTUC.
"mummy" wanna buy hair dye.
hahas. send juan home first.
went up juan's hse to see "mummy"
"mummy" cut hair. DAMN CUTE LAHS.
:D

Then went grandma house.
my sister gave me a surprise!
I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY EXCITED.
she hand me a book.
then i thought what was it.
and yes it stated.
《第8号当铺》
《第8号当铺》!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
《第8号当铺》!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
《第8号当铺》!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
《第8号当铺》!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woohoo!!!!
WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

a note from her :D so sweet.

《第8号当铺》~~~!! XD

dont feel like returning to library! can i buy from them ? :(
i wanna own it! :P

JUAN WENT TO GENTING ALREADY~
NOBODY TO CHAR ME.
:P
ENJOY AND BUY PRESENT FOR ME K!! :D
LOVE YOU~
i will eat lobster without you hahahas

LAST MON

school started.
mkt on the first day.
yunlih brought this chocolate to school for us.
she bought it in malaysia.
:D
machiam having pinic like that. hahas.

LAST SAT

went PC SHOW again.
yeahs. this time round.
I BROUGHT MONEY TO BUY MY LAPTOP!
:D
zy came my house fetch me and then to lentor to fetch juan.
Juan said that she nearly DIED on the road.
hahahs :X
then went to fetch carrie~
was deciding between asus and toshiba.
ended up i chose toshiba over asus.
the main reason is that toshiba's price dropped from 1329$ to 1179$
ahahas. my mama say buy cheaper one use one to two years can change.
and yes i bought it.
BUT
OUT OF STOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
have to wait for 7days.
DAMN IT LORRS. TT SALESMAN KNS. F*** HIM!
so paid 30% deposit.

while waiting for zy to buy his LG lappie.
me juan carrie were sitting like some aunties at the corner. where ppl were looking when they walked pass us. felt like monster =.=

auntie carrie giving that want cry want luff face. RETARD! :X
and me and carrie were EXTREMELY EXCITED THAT WE RAN TO WASTSON SALES!
HAHAHAS. SUPER FUNNY.
WE WENT CRAZY UPON SEEING $3, $4, $2~ 50%~
WAH~
so we bought lotsa things.
i bought 4 toothpaste which cost 2 for $1.95.
2 kiwi body scrub. one for $2.
1 hair treatment cream for $3.
3 in 1 cotton pad, 3.95$.
5 in a pack lavendar mask $4.
1 toy for coffee $1.
:D
hahahs zy and juan werent too excited.
but zy went berserk when he saw the toothpaste he's using were on sales.
2 for 1.95$
and he bought 10!!!!!!!
he said he wanted to wipe all out!
SIAOS!!!!!!
me and carrie were damn high that we've bought so much!
hahas.

met sz and hc at northpoint.
had BBQ chicken.

went freddy's hse for mahjong.
PUI SZ SHOWING OFF THIS "MIRACLE"
zy sent me and carrie home around 12plus am.

LAST THURS
PC SHOW! :D
went suntec.
took 857.
KNS!
REGRET TAKING BUS!
making me so malu.
:/
me juan sz went around.
looking for my laptop.
kept collecting brochures.
hahas.
then, saw EK.
he was working at "brother"
he was slacking so we walked around.
me juan and sz therefore decided to bring ek to "save" someone
hahas. but ek too weak. he decided to give up!
JUAN I SWEAR YOU'RE SUPER BAD K!
so walked around waited for zy to come.
we had pepper lunch.
then when zy reached. we went PC show again.
=.= crowded like shit.
but still walk-able.

sz's first time eating PEPPER LUNCH! LOLS!!!!!!!!!
see that white paper on his hand.
crap! the angmoh beside him was looking at him and wispering his friend about sz lorrs!!!

LAST WED
went bras basah by myself.
didnt manage to find the book. :(
was super super disappointed.
ended up i bought another 3 works of 深雪.
hehes.
《灵魂舞会》
《灵魂舞会2》
《兜售回忆》
cost me a total of 30plus.
(:
then went to meet juan carrie sz and zy at northpoint.
after that zy drove us to seletar.
couldnt stop laughing.
LOL. and i swear i saw meteorite!
but i was too excited that when i'm shouting to them, its GONE!
I HAVEN MAKE A WISH YET LORRS!
:/

2009-06-09T23:24:00.005+08:00

i'm watching 第八号当铺 again.
i've lost counts of how many times i've watched .
please pardon me for keep on talking about 第八号当铺.
:D
see du de wei~ SO WOOOOOOLALALA~
my love~ <3>

水梨
this is my favourite fruit.
its god damn it JUICY and SWEET!
:D
ah yun~ come my house~ quick!
i treat you this. instead of those unwanted biscuits hahahas.

school going to start again in a few days time.
this time round, will be in the same class as seng and derek for only ONE module.
SADDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SCHOOL'S BORED!
without them!
i'm going bras besar tml~
i'm going to find that novel!!! MUST!
i'm dying!
no more books for me to read.

i'm enjoying my life as a 宅女!
slacking at home all day~
i'm loving it~
:D

will be meeting my girls next mon!
maybe we can discuss about our gathering this month!

and ah yun~ come my hse.

chat chat chat! i miss you lahs! :P

2009-06-07T23:49:00.009+08:00

《朝圣．爱．传说》

yeahs. i bought this novel by 深雪.
wasnt really into this novel.
but i happen to find out that 《第8号当铺》 was written by her too!
i've long wanted 《第8号当铺》 novel.
but i cant find it.
:(
i have been searching for it since long ago.
so i'm gonna try bras besar~ hope that theres any 2nd hand ones.
i dont mind. as long as i lay my hands on that !!!!!!!!!!!!

her style of writting is somehow like 神话.
but she put it together with reality.
her novels are direct.
but somehow, it may not be the way it seems to be.
its like, when you've read a sentence saying that they were hesitating or such.
you have to put in efforts to explore the characters mindset and emotions at that moment.
its not simply like hesitating.
there's a really big meaning behind all her novels.
eh i only know how to describe in chinese lahs hahas :P

just like 《第8号当铺》.
the moral of the story is that human are greedy.
as long as theres greed and desire, the demon of desire will have the chance to get hold of you and control your mind and heart.

this novel is so so cool~ esp the love stories between 韩诺 and 阿精.
woooooo~<3<3<3

but i still think my du de wei acted so so so well in that show :P

i'm so so so smittened by 深雪's novels~ ! <3

fri.
Accompanied seng to Gleneagles hospital to visit someone.
woo weather was scorching.
alighted at orchard.
went over to four seasons hotel to take bus.
ummm... the hospital looks really lokkok.
seng insisted that it looks like HOTEL.
somehow lahs.
human bodies are fragile.
PEOPLE! health = wealth!
take care of your own health please!
upon seeing how painful is the patient, i was afraid.
afraid that i will be like this too.
:(

had delifrance.
spent 10.90!
WTH!~
my sandwhich was so ENORMOUS!.
i was stuned when the person serve me my order.
hahas.
its not bad lahs.
we were both damn full.
felt like vomitting.
after our lunch, went back to the ward.
til 4pm.
we left the hospital.
went to woodlands.
while seng go back home.
went popular.
bought a novel~
WOOHOOO~
i love reading~ love love reading! :D

wed.

met up with ahyun~
:D
had a heart to heart talk session.
or rather "updating" session.
hahas. felt really good after talking to her.
went astons and had lunch.
I'VE BEEN CRAVING FOR ASTONS SINCE THE START OF THE EXAM.
damn. see how long have i been waiting.

went daiso after that.
bought some nail art stuffs.
since exam is over, then shall enjoy.
had pretty nails now.
but i'm getting sick of it after like 4 days? :X
changing soon. hahas.
as usual ahyun bought some snacks.
and she has to rush to work. :(
didnt had enough!
but really thanks alot for listening to me.
:D

2009-06-01T00:50:00.002+08:00

no time to update at all!
had been mugging.
ZHANGYUN! 1ST JUNE!!!! :D
come on come on flood me with dates and PLANS! :D
couldnt wait for tml's exam.
thou i'm still stressed abt it.
but, i couldnt wait to be freed!
after 6.45pm, i'm FREED!
(:

has been eating dumplings' grandmummy made.
i'm gainning back weight.
gonna go for exercises in the 2 weeks holiday!!!!
staying at home everyday and studying, and keep on munching on whatever i see in the kitchen.
wah laos!
cannot cannot !~

buying new lappie at the IT FAIR.
cannot wait :D
has been nudging my dad to buy psp slim too. :P
DS has died.
going to send it for repair.
sometimes, games can keep one accompany when one is bored.
just like, when i'm on the bus, and the journey takes like..... 10000000 years.
and suddenly your mp3 DIED ON YOU TOO.
to realise that i've forgotten to CHARGE the previous night.
*GUA GUA GUA~*
AND SO.... the 10000000years ride, i ended up staring at the sceneries outside the window.
when all those things are what i see everyday.
irritating...
RIGHT.

got to go back to MUGGING.
yeah i love law,when love grows into HATRED.
things gonna be ugly.

2009-05-24T22:05:00.002+08:00

我愛上的.

after so long. i still couldnt let go.
the feelings are fading.
only memories are left.
the only thing that i couldnt let go now is i that i couldnt accept the fact that you're gone.
just like this.
i guess this is why til this day, i wouldnt be able to move on.

my fav korean band! SUJU! <3
KANGIN~ WOOHOO!
:D
this song has been out quite some times lahs.
didnt rmb to post it up.
this is so COOL ok!
they're seriously the best band in korea.

tues exam.
stressed up.
jus three papers!
i just wanna get rid of them. FAST.
then i can enjoy.
just a pass will do.
seriously hate accounting.
:/
dont know why do i even take this course.
i'm going to study.
ciaos~

2009-05-22T00:03:00.002+08:00

TO: MY BESTFRIEND TAN HUI JUAN AND MY SISTER TAN MEI YING!

LOVES! <3

2009-05-21T23:46:00.002+08:00

二軍模範七棒 new album! :D
have been watching 模範棒棒堂 every SINGLE day.
not really a big fan of them.
but really like them.
they're cute and talented.
they've got the looks.
funny and crappy!
hahahahas.

i seriously think i'm fast enough to get this song set as my RINGTONE.
cos.... the album will only be out on 29th may at TAIWAN.:X
thumbs up! :D
SUPPORT THEM~

ye shou, mao di, wei yu, xiao lu, ah ben, xiao ma, li quan.

2009-05-19T12:41:00.001+08:00

2009-05-19T12:27:00.003+08:00

damn suay.
1 week to exam,and i'm having fever now.
lucky i didnt stay over on sat for chalet.
if not i will sure faint the next morning.
i think it has been years since i had fever.
TERRIBLE!
but feeling abit better after taking med.

sometimes, you just wished that everything will be fine after sometimes.
but seems that it wont be fine on our side.
the efforts we put in.
all wasted.
just because of one person.
its all gone.
i dont fucking care now.
it gets on my nerve whenever i see smth i don wanna see.
but i will ignore it.
cos i've no rights to care anymore.

2009-05-01T00:00:00.005+08:00

ACCOUNTING TEST
LAW TEST
NEXT WEEK.
EXAM'S COMING!

fcuking stress.
has been studying.
abit regret continuing this course.
its getting more and more difficult.

sorry to those who have been asking me out.
seriously i've no time.
either i will go back school study or i will be in school for lesson.
or i will stay home and study.
yes. STUDY!
time's running out.
:/
i'm not enjoying my life.
duh~

apart from studying.
we have to find some fun in between.
and it all started from yvonne kelvin and huiru.
while they were photocopying the notes.
hahahahas. super funny!
we photocopied all kinds of things we could find with the notes.
claimed by kelvin and eric that so that we wont be that bored while studying.
WE EVEN PHOTOCOPIED OUR NEOPRINTS INTO THE NOTES!
lols. sing dollar, RUPIA, US note, ICs, driving liscenses, necklace, SLIPPER, all sort of membership cards, earpiece, wallet logos, braclet, watch etc...

saw tom and ayyub.
they were sleeping in the library.
waiting for night class.
(:

my aunt visiting me soon~
:/
not feeling well today.
so called mummy to fetch me from interchange.
and with my bag which weigh like canon.
i'm totally..... =.=
AND HAVE TO STUDY AGAIN!~ mugging law now.
while using lappie.
:X hahas.

PPL. JIAYOU FOR OUR TESTS!
:D
loves

seriously. you're a disappointment.
but none of us blame you.
cos we know that you dont mean to.
we love you cos you're our friend.
thats why we chose to shrug it off.
(:

2009-04-27T21:18:00.002+08:00

this song makes me cry.
and makes me decide to forget and let go.

2009-04-27T20:14:00.002+08:00

杜德伟 <3

第八号当铺

i love this show!
this show is damn old. watched it last time.
but never really pay attention to it.
until i saw again on scv. its repeating again.
and i'm so so so attracted to 杜德伟!
he's really charming in that show!
quite sad that i've finished watching the whole show online.
:( finding other of his shows.but he seldom act.so it's quite hard to find. :(
he has got that kind of charisma that i like~ :P
OK~ PPL! I ADMIT OK. I LOVE OLD GUYS =.= ~
hahas i rmb how amy xy keep emphasizing on that old korean actor!
and he's really handsome what!~
so it's proven. i love OLD man.
hahas. and 杜德伟 is really really WOOO!
He makes my heart stop bumping and i couldnt breath!
:P

and his voice is so unique.
making me so in love with him.
*screams*
he's LOVE!
and
he's older than my parents omg.
didnt really like him last time.
as in didnt really pay much attention to him.

juan said that i'm a pervert.
so crazy over him.
and my sister ask me don snatch with her.
she likes him first. WTH.
damn!
anybody who knows when is he coming SG.
PLEASE NOTIFY ME!
I WANNA HUG HIM AND SAY I LOVE HIM INTO HIS FACE! :p

OK.
LAW TEST POSTPONED. to next wed.
but still doesn't mean that i can relax.
because. EXAM IS COMING!
and also accounting test next week!! sians!~
will be damn busy this and next week!
and i'm trying to complete the summary for acc2700.
tml must hand up!!!!!! :/

2009-04-22T02:26:00.002+08:00

law test on thurs.
shit the hell out of me!
praying that that BRAD MOORE.
will postpone the test, if not we will be dead.
doesnt have the legislation,how are we going to do the test!
let alone get a pass!
damn it~
i dont wanna fail!
NO WAY~!!!!!!
feeling shitty now!
.

.

shall update tml.

《没有爱情的地方》

2009-04-20T23:32:00.003+08:00

《没有爱情的地方》

this is a novel written by yvonne's cousin.
when yvonne told me about this novel.
the first thought that came to my mind.
" this novel is for pathetic souls like me."
i love reading those chinese emo novels.
the way they describe every kind of feelings in such a way
that really zoom in how you really feel.
and i took around one hour to finish the whole thing.
i dont wanna miss out any part of it.
one thing that attracts me to this story is
where this story took place.
i dont know.
i wish that there's this left-wingged angel
who can take me to this place where there's no love.
because love hurts.

these are few sentences which i like.

我说过，我本来是一个天使，疗伤天使。
我的任务是，寻找那些被丘比特的箭射错的人，从他们身上把错箭拔出来，让他们不再为爱错的人伤心难过。
每一天，丘比特的箭，难免会射错很多对象。

因为，他们是为爱留下最多眼泪的人，他们是失去了爱情的人，没有心情工作，没有精神交际，没有灵魂生活。
每一天都是潦倒的，生命像是失去了目标，完全没了斗志，只活在回忆里，只期盼那份已逝的爱情会再次回来。
痛苦，是他们的心灵折磨。
等待，是他们唯一的寄托。
所以，他们想要到一个没有爱情的地方。
身边的一草一木，都会促使他们的爱情回忆翻滚再翻滚，正所谓触景伤情。
身边的每对情侣，都会让他们感觉到自己有多孤单，对情人的思念会变得更浓厚，情绪更失落。

外表开朗的她，一点都看不出伤心难过，
没有人知道，她是伤者之中流过最多眼泪的人。

"会不会觉得，通常哭过了以后，心情会好些？反而想哭，却哭不出来的感觉，糟透了。”

“我们在一起，真的很开心。可是这一切，都是在她离开了以后，我才发现到的。”

时间，一直以来都是改变人类的最佳武器。
或许，以前的那个他，真的是个很好的人，很适合自己的人。
但是，经过了岁月的磨练，生活的考验，
那个他，和现在的自己，其实都已经改变了许多。
就算再次携手共行，也未必再有最初的感觉了。

here are some of which i like most.
this story is really nice.

guys. you can take a look at the story at

http://royzen.spaces.live.com/default.aspx?_c11_BlogPart_BlogPart=blogview&_c=BlogPart&partqs=amonth%3d4%26ayear%3d2009&sa=815276951

yvonne's cousin update in no time.
so keep a look out for the updates.
am looking forward for chapter 10!
going read now! :P
support ah~ really nice :D

thou i couldnt feel the whole thing.
but i know how it feels like when you lose someone you love.
i've been in love BEFORE. duh~
but i dont know how it feels like now.
:/
cos i'm in no such situation like the story.
i have no rights to even cry.

its true that cupid do make mistakes at times.
everytime i guess.
and just because of this beautiful mistake.
i've sacrificed my tears.
til now.
i couldnt cry anymore.
i admit.
i tried to be happy.
i tried so hard.
at times it set me thinking.
why am i so exhausted.
i couldnt find the reason to my tiredness.
i knew myself.
clearly .
because i tried so hard to be myself every single day.only subconsciously.
i know why.
i dont know why.
i'm surpressing.
i felt like crying.
another voice is already screaming inside me tearing me apart in my heart.
but yet i couldnt do what i want.
i dont wanna know the truth.
i want to believe that there's still hope.
as long as i try.
keep on trying.
yes i'm dumb!
how can i be rational when i'm in love.
tell me how to.
so the only thing i can do is to escape to an unrealistic world.
music,novels...
whatever.
to live my own in there.
trying to feel everything in the music,novel,drama.
cos it hurts to think of my own pathetic story.
i'm forever falling so deep down under.
where i couldnt see myself anymore.
tell me.
i'm thinking too much.
you arent thinking what i'm guessing.
you arent really doing what i'm guessing.
we're only a step away.
boy.

2009-04-17T16:57:00.003+08:00

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就...

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

2009-04-16T22:02:00.004+08:00

SHENGZHI'S TALENT TIME.

this video was in my documents for going to half a year.
and i've decided that i should share this good stuff! :D
enjoys.

2009-04-16T21:39:00.001+08:00

Jeff Dunham - Achmed the Dead Terrorist

Wonder Girls - Nobody

sz's favourite! :D

.
more coming up. (:

2009-04-16T20:50:00.005+08:00

JURONG POINT

was late for law class today.
simply because i overslept.

and I COUDLNT FIND MY DAMN GASTRIC MEDICINE!
i thought i had finish it. which is totally impossible
and i realised i put it in another cupboard when i search again when i'm homed.

wth! but still ok.
only alittle discomfort.
still bearable.
went jurong point after class with huiru,yvonne,kelvin stephen and... louis.
umm.

met up with KELVINCHEW.
huiru's bf.
had lunch over at food court.
the indonesian food was nice.
:)

went to watch KNOWING after lunch.
i had forgotten when was the last time i watch movie.
this show is quite nice.
except that i cant accept the fact that the DIANA died just like that =.=
the effects and stuffs were "THUMBS UP"
i could feel the tense while watching.
i couldnt help crying when i saw the scene where the train went overr all the passengers.
and when its finally end of the world.
:(
and yvonne was crying from start to end. LOLS.
AND THE FUNNY THING IS.
WHEN THE MOVIE GETS LOUDEER, HER VOLUME GETS LOUDER WHILE TALKING TO ME TOO!
LOL!
i was rather distracted by ....someone's mumblings and laughing to himself.
tsk. i thought kelvin was talking to him lahs
but i think kelvin was quite disturbed too.
hahas.
i held no prejudices against him alright.
just the fear i had in me towards him.
THATS IT IT!

went home after that. fall asleep immediately after i wash up.
i totally fall asleep on bus back home.

kelvin and yvonne wanted to take a look at the new station. JOO KOON
SO we bounced.
i didnt know there's a station called PIONEER.
in chinese they call it "XIAN QU"
me and yvonne were blurred.
like no link between the english and chinese.
ahas. anyway.
JOOKOON is quite industrialised.
nothing much except for the factories.
there were HDB ALSO.
weird lahs.

but surprisingly, the station was well-deco. (:

overall. had a fulfiling day.
need not stay home and brood over those bothering matters.
but i think there's no differences whether i stay home or go out.
because i still let my imaginations run wild.
i dont know whether to believe you not.
it seems like you arent lying.
but i dont know isit that you dont wanna make me sad, thats why you chose to lie.
infront of me only.
i know you still care.
if not you wont even bother to ask me. aint it?
i dont wanna let go.
i dont want to give up just like that.
we're just a step away.
dont just shrug me off like this.
i'm determined.
MORE STRONG-WILLED THAN YOU THINK YOU CAN CHASE ME OFF JUST LIKE THIS!

2009-04-15T23:23:00.014+08:00

BACK FROM SWIMMING!

first i wanna intro to all SINGLES BABES.
MY MOST BELOVED AND ADORABLE FRIEND.
CHIA SHENG ZHI

CHIA SHENG ZHI ( XIE SHENG ZHI )
D.O.B: 16may1989
Sign: TAURUS
school: NYP ( NANYANG POLY )
course: some shit course
race: yellowish-korean-chinese
nickname: xiaobai.shengmao.

this friend of mine. is super duper good. he's a mr nicey.
thou he's a ZAI NAN.
those who camp at home.
playingg games.
has a tiko look.
super WHITE.
not tall. only 165cm or shorter.
loves wearing CROCS .
but he can really be a good lover.
he likes a girl for 3-4 bloody years!
seriously i know him for damn 8 yrs.
one word to describe him, BEST! :D

IF INTERESTED PLEASE CALL HIM AT 90084979!

reason for promoting him.
cos he's really good. he always send me home when we had gatherings and had to go home late.
no matter he live at st22 and i live at st20.
which is 2 STREETS AWAY!
lols.
just now,he even wanted to send me home 1st then send juan to inter then go home.
but i dont want him to be so tiring.
and to save the troubles.
i left him to send juan to inter and he can go home directly after that.
HE'S BLOODY GOOD.
he can go alight at our bus stop and go home.
but he say he can acc juan to inter to take bus.
cos it's 1030pm already.
where can you find such a good friend!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHIT HIM :X

but its a pity that he still doesnt have any gfs!
tsk. HOW COULD IT BE!
HE'S SUCH A NICE GUY.
if you dont look at his damn face.
you will fall in love with him.
he can dance "nobody" by wonder girls. he has got talents alrights :D

and i dont know why.
shengzhi you always sms to my HOUSE PHONE!
=.=

alright.back to today!
met juan under my house.
bought MUDPIE macflurry!
WOOHOO!!! WAS DAMN HAPPY
WE WERE CRAVING FOR ICE CREAMS! :D

then went to zy/fred's house to swim. by the time we reached there was already 7pm.
woo~ swam for 20laps only.
we or rather i targetted 50laps.
but end up chatting away.
AGAIN! LOLS
juan lahs. saw alot of flies in the pool.
then she dont want swim already.
left me swimming alone and she went moon bathing.
idiot.
went to bath at 8plus.

then went 400plus.
met up with shengzhi amy heechai roger and ek.
had roti prata.
really LOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!
i'm quite excited about the chalet!!
really couldnt wait to get drunk!
and the BBQ!
I THINK IT WILL BE A 2B'03 GATHERING! :D

amy roger and sz

hc ek juan.

hahahas.
3 ah peks kiao kar watching soccer,tennis and basketball matches.

they were swearing at almost anything!

then went home around 10.07pm.
ek took bus home when he can walk in the shelter. =.= wah laos.
5 mins walk only also take bus. hahas.
while me hc sz roger juan walked to hc's blk.
sending roger halfway back.
then me juan sz took 804 at hc's blk.
BASKET LAHS! BASKET SUMORE!
SHORT LEGGED! BUS RAN AWAY.
have to wait!
hahas
and we waited.
dont know sz danced the NOBODY how many times.
til hc fed up!

OH YA THERE WERE LOTS OF COCKOROACHES UNDER THE BLOCKS!
AND SERIOUSLY I DONT KNOW WHY WHEN I SAW THE 1ST ONE,
I COULDNT HELPED BUT TO HIT SZ!
LOLS.
sorry uh~ :P

i had to make myself busy in order to stop myself from thinking about you.
whatever you said.
whatever you did.
however we were.
i dont know when can i then let go.
i dont know when are you letting me go.
i just want to live my life.
because i cannot bare the life without you.
i hope you understand how i feel.

2009-04-14T22:20:00.002+08:00

搞笑

那一條牙膏
在對我傻笑
嘲笑我永遠用不掉
想睡就睡想鬧就鬧
好快樂少了人嘮叨

藍色的碗盤多買了一套
我忘了沒有人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角
無辜的陪笑
才會讓我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑藉著熱鬧
掩蓋著心跳邊哭邊笑
偏要說著一個人真
好當人群散了
突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了

還在搞笑害怕回家
不知怎麼熬
這麼多年早就習慣
有妳的撒嬌
我想我能熬但是至少要讓我知道妳好不好

我們的小狗食量變好小
眼神裡常常顯的無聊
他習慣睡覺的床位少了一雙腳
所以他常常看著門口睡不著

我在搞笑藉著熱鬧
掩蓋著心跳邊哭邊笑
偏要說著一個人真好
當人群散了
突然覺得我可以死掉我受不了

我在搞笑卻在最後
眼淚拼命掉
妳的離開失去多少
我計算不了
忙完了一天　突然覺得又何必辛勞
對誰炫耀

還在搞笑
是否擁有麻痺的療效
唱一夜歌卻避不開
催淚的曲調

我徹夜胡鬧
希望聽到有人會提到你好不好

.

.

this song really narrate my current situation.

i'm acting all along yes i am.

2009-04-14T20:24:00.002+08:00

BEN & JERRY TREATS!

suggested by huiru that i should blog about this.
:D

had accounting class today.

so while we were discussing about the earnings per share.

regarding the divide by adjustment factor.

we were puzzled at first.

discussing whether isit multiply or divide.

the coursebook stated divide.

but kumar wrote multiply.

so forgotten who asked the lecturer.

the eric said.

"ITS MULTIPLY! ITS MULTIPLY!"

huiru: "but the book say divide lehs."
eric: "the book wrote wrongly.its multiply"
yvonne shaking her head: "don listen to him lahs"
LOLS.

somehow i forgotten how they say about the BEN AND JERRY thingy.

and end up kumar said its her fault.

it's DIVIDE!

WE ALL LOL!
eric is going to TREAT US TO BEN AND JERRY!
:D
of cos eric denied lahs.

yvonne knew him too well.

she said if he will treat, money drop from sky!
LOLS.
but true uh.

:X

dont know why, my gastric has been getting worst these few days.

thou i have gastrics for years.

but still this is unbearable.

tsk.

i shouldnt rely too much on medicines.

so i have been watching my diet.

and somehow it got better when i dont eat chillies.

but chillies = my life.

i guess. i'm the one who's causing all these problems.

and now it's getting worst.

i've been forcing myself not to eat.

seriously,even if i dont force myself, i still have no appeitte.
i'm eating for the sake of EATING.

:/
what's wrong with me.

i guess things have been bugging me.

making me lose interests in everything.

even my daily meals.

i'm going swimming again tml.

if i can i will swim everyday!
only when i'm swimming, i'm stress freed!

dont ask me why.

i dont know why also.

:)

and seriously. i feel lik eating ben and jerry!
:(
i wanna freeze my brain with mouthfuls and mouthfuls of freezing ben and jerry ice cream!
to stop myself from thinking about all those irritating RUBBISH!

seriously i was thinking.

if one day i'm no longer by your side.

will you ever realise that i'm already gone?

i just want you to know.

thou i will be gone by the time you realise.

will you or will you not.

i dont care.

i am always around for you.

watching over you.

the only thing is that i cant stay by your side anymore.

will you be happier?
just tell me yes.

and make me believe that its all worth it.

2009-04-13T16:51:00.002+08:00

i think i've sorted out all of my thoughts.

but still i still dont feel good.

why am i always in this kinda shit hella situation.

when we both were stucked.

why are you insisting that this shouldnt be the way.

when we both could try it out.

you know we could.

why dont you give it a try.

before you put this relationship into sentence.

now i'm the determined one.

what have you got to say.

i hate you being so draggy.

you're pulling and pushing me to and from.

making me confused.

and now dumped me alone.

to think over on my own.

to think if i'm the one in wrong.

or you're up to something.

am i being too paranoid.

or are you really hiding something from me.

stop all these guessing games.

i wont retreat.

dont sound asif you're the determined one.

cos you arent.

i'm holding on to this relationship.

but all i see is that you're slowly retreating.

is something pulling you away.

or are you stepping back.

be it relationship or friendship.

whatever you you gave.

are nothing.

compared to the efforts i've put in.

the tears i shed for you.

you're worth.make me believe in that.

did not go school today. gastric~. tsk must be because i didnt had anything before i swim.
and only had a small bun after that until 2plus pm then i woke up. if only humans need not eat to survive.i swear i wont eat if that's the case.

TIME TO PROMOTE YOUTUBE ! :D

2009-04-13T02:37:00.001+08:00

boy i'm not going to let go.
no matter what. NO!

2009-04-12T23:55:00.035+08:00

BACK FROM SWIMMING!

tired!
went Bugis with juan<3.
she came all the way down to yishun then trained to Bugis with me!
hahas. cos suddenly i felt like shopping.
tsk. didnt have enough cash. so bought 2 dresses only :(
i hate my wardrobe now!
seriously.
i'm wearing the same thing over and over and over and OVER AGAIN!
it really spoils my daily mood.
i cant stand the sight of myself wearing those shit things!
thats why you see my mood deteriorated.
:X
bugis was packed with humans.
but still ok. we managed to shop.
woo!
then.wanted to rush back to aunt's hse to swim.
when i called my sister at 6plus.
they were going home already. WTH!
THEN. we decided to go zy/fred's house to swim.
:P
called zy!
went to change into my swim suit.
while changing. we tried on our new BUYS!
abit disappointed lahs!
:(
but its ok i tink.
took lotsa photos!
forever de lehs! hahas.
roger "JOGGED" from his house to zy's house.
woo. POWER OF LOVE!
:X
were chatting by the pool.
hahas. i only managed to swim 10 laps!
:/
after roger left.
we decided to go zy's house bath.
went to his basement and wash up.
his mama came down and brought us drinks and food.
:P so paiseh. lols.
THANKS AUNTIE.
zy's mum likes ROUND thing.
:X
hahas. SAW THAT BIG BEAR<3 zy's brother got from genting!
I WANT I WANT I WANT LAHS!
so cute!!!!!!!!!!
hahas.
sat there and chatted.
10plus then he drove us home.
<3

reached home. quite tired. didnt rest for the whole day!
went out for the whole day.
was homed in the afternoon but went out in the end.

new dress!

NICE ONOT! :/

hahas. don ask me why am i having the same pose again.

the new dresses we bought.

random. i hate flashes. seriously.

zy me and BIG BEAR! :D

BIG BEAR AND JO! wah laos! big ok! :D

lime juice and i forgot what's that. zy's mummy treat :D

me juan zy. (lousy foto taking skill)

demure jo. :X

juan's trying to act cute

the guy behind.was telling the whole world what are we doing with our HP!

ECP
Got up at 8am.
wash up and went for breakfast.
then to boonkeng market.
cos grandmummy wanna "shop"
then after "shopping".
we went ECP!
OMG OMG OMG!
it was raining.
but we couldnt care much. hahas.
sisters went cycling.
me and grandmummy and parents sat in the shelter. helping them take pictures.
i dont know how to cycle also! what the shit!
:(
i wanna swim lahs! the water is clean! CLEANER THAN SENTOSA'S!
wanted to go over to the stone..whatever you call that.
but the we will wet our shorts.
so stayed on shore.
took lotsa pictures!
jumping~ lols
even mummy and daddy also shook their heads!
left ECP at 11plus.
went clementi~
had our lunch.
dimsum + claypot rice.
then went home.
was already like 2pm when we reached home. fell asleep until 3plus.
juan called me.

UNGLAM. hahas but i like it :X

me and sis. grandmummy behind :P

her jump was so cute lahs!

I TINK I LOOK LIKE CHANG ER LORRS!

emo...

gina (:

my mummy couldnt believe that i'd jump so high! :/

yes that pose again LOLS

juan said i look like small kid. (HAPPY!)

SAT
met huiru,stephen,franky(stephen's bro),kelvin&adra.
went marina square bowling.
didnt play lahs!
didnt know how to play.
thou we always played during sec school.
but always went into the drain!
wth!
so dont really like it.
:X
while they were playing.
i saw one AH TIONG!
DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN HANDSOME!
i swear! :X
i met my 1st ah tiong there!
hais. my standard became so LOW. WHY!
my taste became so bad suddenly.
lols. but honestly speaking he's really handsome.
MY CUP OF TEA!
hahahas.
i like guys with those fringe!
look soooooo IRRESISTABLE! :X
look only lahs.
and for goodness sake!
i cannot stand his friend.
such a........ =.=
he thought i was looking at him but i'm actually looking at my ah tiong lorrs!!!!!
and he still ACT COOL INFRONT OF ME!
OMG!
eh eh eh everybody saw lorrs!
and he keep looking over.
asif i'm looking at him like that!
buay tahan!
when we left, i was looking at my ah tiong.
den suddenly that guy look at me and try to attract my attention.
=.= seriously....... wtf!
hahahs. :X
aya.. me and ah tiong got fate no SHIT.
walked around waiting for time to have dinner.
huiru went off first.
i'm guilty!
forget it.
finally had our dinner at swensens!
i was damn damn damn damn TIRED!
i just couldnt help but to try to keep talking like my usual self.
but part of me was rather bothered by my own problems.
i jus need some peace.
so me and twinny went to the seaview along esplanade.
i ranted everything out to her.
we sang. took pictures.
and i realised, i was much more stronger than i thought.
i didnt breakdown.
i thought i would.

VIEWS FROM ESPLANADE! SO CHIO! :D

YOU SAW THE MOON? THE ONE LIKE YOLK!
IT WAS DAMN DAMN DAMN BIG WHEN WE SAW IT.
GORGEOUS! :D

THE FIRST AH TIONG I FANCIED! XD

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

-END-

2009-04-10T09:39:00.003+08:00

傻瓜也许单纯得多
爱得没那么做作

爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句
傻瓜.

i am. i know i am.

2009-04-10T00:29:00.004+08:00

LOVE THIS MV ~ ! <3>

howiwishwecouldbelikethistoo.
butthatsallfairytales.thatdoesnthappeninreallife.

photos heavy post.

2009-04-09T23:33:00.013+08:00

woo! i'm finally back from school. reached home around 10.50pm! :/

so tired.

woke up at 6.30am. had law lesson.

went lunch at some hawker centre behind school.

went back to the rooms behind library.

booked it at 1st.

woo~ and laming in there.

wanted to study.

end up doing nth. lols.

played bingo at 1st.

wanted to sleep until 4pm then study.

tsk tsk.

end up i think only huiru slept.

hahas. i'm damn bloody tired. but couldnt get to sleep.

eric was playing with his psp. =.=

we wanted to study lahs. seriously couldnt. so end up we crap around.

telling ghost stories. laming.took pictures.

LAUGHING NON STOP.

LOLS WAH LAOS.

I SWEAR I DONT KNOW WHY I KEPT LAUGHING.

cant control. hahahahs!
marine square :X
and i really find this funny lahs!!

and seriously eric is damn STUPID!
he didnt realised that his MP4 was missing and that keychain.
WHATEVER YOU CALL THAT.
was missing too. hahahas! stephen took it and i kept it from 12pm til 9pm.
THEN HE REALISED! LOLS!!!!

huiru and kelvin were making the sounds in their mouth while eating the sweets i gave them.

then huiru told kelvin : "eh like marble uh"
then kelvin looked at her and replied calmly:" uh ya "
then kelvin asked emotionlessly: " you play marble before?"
then huiru answered him: " ya when i was young"
LOLS. WAH LAOS. WTH.
i was laughing like mad. but they dont find it funny at all! LOLS.

then while we were studying.
kelvin couldnt take it.
and he take a nap.
me and stephen looked at him and cant help laughing.
in the end we decided to do some stupid stuffs! LOLS!
BELOW ARE THE PICTURES!
CANNOT TAHAN STEPHEN WITH HIS ULTRA LAME BUTTERFLY! LOLS
kelvin became fishy of it when he woke up.
hahahas and tried to steal my hp several times.
lalalala~ i think he wont expect me to blog and post his PICTURES!
:P

could have taken the pictures of his pri school and sec school photos! tsk!
was too slow. :/
i enjoyed all these rather than studying :X
we went for test at 6pluspm.
last min, all were chionging. tsk
and hugging buddha's leg at the very last min is proven USELESS!
die die die!!!!!
flunk! so difficult.

happened to see the answers of the lady sitting infront of me.
:X hahas. but only 2 Qs! aya!!! idiot.
was shaggard lahs.
6am to 11pm lehs!!!

when i reached home. i saw coffee. WITH HIS NEW HAIR CUT!
SO SO SO SO CUTE! LOLS. he was showing off to me when i was opening the door!
HIAO KIA! :P
he jumped on to me when i say "WAH SO HANDSOME"
he was so proud!
and he barked when i say you miss me so much huh~
asif telling me he miss me and how he was enjoying himself at the grooming saloon today.
hahas.

stephen took this when kelvin's sleeping. :P

he took pic of me and i took pic of him. =.=

kelvin's ipod.

stolen loot. :X

BINGO!

HAHAHAHS! see stephen behind! with his "butterfly"

act only. actually never study.

coffee's biscuits and sister left a note on my table acting cute.

KELVIN'S HOUSE ON TUES! :D

juan`LOVE.
thanks for being there when i need you.
thou you did nth much. but i'm still happy.
that there's someone whom i can rely on.
and hope that your daddy get well soon.
i love you. you're really my best friend . <3 twinny! dear~ i love you really!!! i dont know what to do if wasnt for you! i'm speechless. i've so much to tell you. but i dont know how to put it in words. simply a thank you alot! no words can describe my appreciation towards your love for
me. :(
muacks!

yes.i'mbeingparanoidagain.thouididntknowifthere'sanythbetweenyouandher.
butihopethiswillbethelastime.

confused.

2009-04-08T17:35:00.006+08:00

PARANOID -

I'M JUST BEING PARANOID.
IGNORE THAT SUPER EMO POST!
SHIT ME!

this lyric is so true.

有人说聪明女孩别陷入恋爱里
会变多疑会常生气变得失去自己
有人说过爱情不如想象那样甜蜜
我却无法戒掉爱情
整个世界都是你

遇见你天空更亮丽喜欢的我不想逃避
希望和你一起分享分分秒秒的两颗真心
即使感情结成了冰
回首时有你的足迹就会开心
温暖我飞翔的旅途中曾有

你路上每辆蓝色的车都以为是你
像是蓝天随时放晴
现在就想见到你
但是我不想为爱情看不见自己
给两人都留些空间
期待下一次相见

遇见你天空更亮丽喜欢的我不想逃避
希望和你一起分享分分秒秒的两颗真心
即使感情结成了冰回首时有你的足迹就会开心
温暖我飞翔的旅途中曾有你

漫步在茫茫人海思念你的背影
我提醒自己别为浪漫上了瘾
彩色爱情诱惑
不停地考验我们
还是喜欢你
说我傻也没关系

遇见你天空更亮丽喜欢的我不想逃避希望和你一起
分享分分秒秒的两颗真心
即使感情结成了冰回首时有你的足迹就会开心
温暖我飞翔的旅途中曾有你

2009-04-08T02:41:00.005+08:00

i'm waiting like a dumbass.

才离开没多久就开始担心今天的你过得好不好
整个画面是你想你想的睡不着
嘴嘟嘟那可爱的模样还有在你身上香香的味道
我的快乐是你想你想的都会笑
没有你在我有多难熬(没有你在我有多难熬多烦恼)
没有你烦我有多烦恼(没有你烦我有多烦恼多难熬)
穿过云层我试着努力向你奔跑
爱才送到你却已在别人怀抱
就是开不了口让她知道
我一定会呵护着你也逗你笑
你对我有多重要我后悔没让你知道
安静的听你撒娇看你睡着一直到老
就是开不了口让她知道
就是那么简单几句我办不到
整颗心悬在半空我只能够远远看着
这些我都做得到但那个人已经不是我
i know this mv is abit lame lahs. this song is realy old. but this is all i wanted to say. its all in the music. i've no idea why my heart is aching. shouldnt it be numbed already?

back from kelvin's house.

2009-04-07T18:11:00.000+08:00

this is another song that i find it damn nice. as usual, i dont understand the lyrics at all. but i did went to translate it online. (: this song on the whole is damn damn nice. have been blasting jay zhou's song recently.

i thought you broke your promise. but at last you didnt :D i'm more than contented.

went kelvin's house in the morning. woke up at 9.30am. and i realised,i'm so going to be late! and i quickly prepared and went out at 10.15am. i was the earliest hahas. waited for the rest at cityhall. then off to Eunos. waited for that eric! tsk ! end up we rather walk to kelvin's house. WAH LAOS. DAMN FAR. just like from my place to northview sec.somewhere that distance lahs hahas. :X
i was so so so hungry. finally reached. the apartment is like chalet~ so cool hahas.
his maid cooked soto ayam for us. its SOTO AYAM not SOTONG AYAM AH! HUIRU. HAHAHAS!
:X watched tv and stuffs. and you wont believe it. we played MAHJONG ON THE FLOOR! LOLS! hahahahahahas!! wth!!!!! so funnny!
eat our soto ayam. GIVE IT A 5 THUMBS UP! zhi de! hahas. especially the chilli!
you know i cant live without chillies! :P then explpore his whole house. quite stuffy ah. but quite nice~ no wonder kelvin's so skinny!~ the distance he walked to and fro form mrt station and back home + the stairs he needed to climb. WAH LAOS. i wanna ask my daddy move there also. :P
i think we were too tired to even study lahs. everybody slept so late last night. end up we didnt study and went home at 3plus. :(
just to go there to eat. abit paiseh lorrs. but i think kelvin's tired himself lahs.
bought soyabean ice cream from mr bean. and some nibbles. i was so damn full but i still have the feeling of eating. just wanna bite something. :/
the sushi shop,wah!! quite good eh. can they have a branch in yishun also. yishun seriously lack of this kinda shop. was shaggard. went to northpoint to look for landyards. and when i was about to call my sister, i bumped into her! hahas. sisters!!! went pets lover and bought a packet of biscuits for COFFEE. grandmummy gave me some money to buy some snacks for coffee. and said that she's coffee's grandmummy also lehs. wow~ coffee will be flying to the ceiling when he heard this. hahas. got home and blog. cos i'm afraid i wont be able to update later. i'm super duper tired. have to study for the test this coming thurs!!! damn!~
twinny dear called me just now but i'm already reaching home in 5 more steps.:(
and i miss you! :/
and juan is irritating, kept saying that i havent transfer her the money we 2 sharing. they havent even transfer to my bank how the hell i transfer you!
kaos!
anyway i really need to take a nap. my brain is shutting down SOON!

will upload those photos when huiru and yunlih send me. (:

loves!~

iknowyoudidntgivemeanypromise.butireallyhopethatwewillstayaswearenoweverday.

2009-04-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

i cant believe i cried. i brokedown today. i called TWINNY dear. and i sat there and cried. i finally brokedown. i cannot remember when was the last time i brokedown. the results don't really affect me at all. because i've expected it. so don't ask me why do i still cry. ITS OBVIOUS! :/ everytime i said that i'm afraid to fall in love. i cant love anymore, but i'd still fall. what the hell. i've to act. act asif i dont care. i dont give a damn to what i saw. what i've heard.i've been suppressing.i'm losing myself.its really karma! this is how i hurt those guys who loved me in the past. and now i'm getting this back. like 1000 times as many, as torturing.i even said that i wanna fight for it. i dont want to wait for miracles to happen. i've lose faith in miracles. but everything seems bleak now. i couldnt see any hope.but i'm reluctant to give up.i dont want to. i want to try. until the day my heart die of depression.but seriously, i've to thank all my darlings. they have been so supportive that i said i'm sad,they're willing to come over to meet me and accompany me. thou they never really did. hahas. but still it's the thoughts that count. (:

meanwhile i want to concentrate on my studies. i dont want to flunk any other modules. i dont wanna think too much again.analysing and categorising all my troubles. =.=

sunday
went somewhere near bugis to have our breakfast.
every sunday family day daddy will bring us around for good food.
this time round, they saw this stall of bah chor mee on teewee program.
WTH. SUCKS LORRS! NOT NICE AT ALL! feel like vommitting. but papa's golden words.
DONT WASTE FOOD. then i had to SWALLOW it down. and i really did. then papa drove us to the usual hang out every sunday. upper pierce seletar. this time round we saw LOTSA MONKEYS!!!!!!!!!! SO CUTE! walk around. blowing bubbles. as usual lahs. i'm a drama mama person.must act abit of those drama scenes. hahas.and they immediately act asif they dont know me. and i've to hug my daddy to show that i'm his beloved. :P
i'm lazy to blog about it lahs. let the pictures do the talking shall we? :X

youbrokeyourpromise.

2009-04-05T18:41:00.000+08:00

will be updating at night. (:

back to blogspot.

2009-04-05T01:49:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blogspot. :D
have been using LJ for months. i think going to a year. it's not that bad.
but still it's not that good either. :X
not really into blogging these few months. unlike those sec school days. i can like blog several times in a day. spending hours on editting my blog template. that's abit over lahs.
it has been long since i last use blogspot. feeling abit [ . . . ]

met up with huiru,yvonne,yvonne's cousin,kelvin,eric and twinny! today.
it was tiring. but absolutely FUN! :D
i couldnt get to sleep on friday night.
i hate myself for always thinking so much.
i slept at only 2plus 3am. i have been sleeping at 3plus.am everyday.
i think my system is immuned to the sleepy bugs.
tsk tsk tsk.
got up at 7plus am. went to market for breakfast with family.
then to guan ming shan to pray to the ancestors.
mummy then drove me home.
SLEPT UNTIL 11AM! damn tired still.
somebody is worst than me. slept at 6am. :/
ok as usual was late to meet them.
when i've reached the first thing i noticed is...yongjun's "BOXER".
LOLS. :X not that bad lahs.. actually. hahas.
saw yvonne's friend. SUCH A PITY! *you-know-what-i-mean*
he's not bad looking YOU KNOW!
walked around after eric came. looked for his present. end up buying nothing.
but instead. yongjun bought 2 tops from topman. LOLS.
eh. but nice lorrs. (:
i like guys wearing cardigan. :D
[ i'm too tired to go on blogging actually ]
can we skip straight to when we reached ps?
hahas. went justacia for diinner. alright lahs. except for the KIMCHI,the food are alright only.

the KIMCHI is nice. yes cos i love KIMCHI! :P
saw xinhui,gekpeng and baoling. wth. i was daydreaming when i realised its them. lols.
so funny. (: miss them lahs really.
craps around as usual.
seriously, how long can we still enjoy this kinda days.
i'm trying to cherish every moment bonding with this bunch of <3>

i wanna be wild just for once. get myself drunk, not caring about YOU YOU YOU AND YOU!
TWINNY! I LOVE U :'( MUACKS

* feel like buying this dress. $33 lorrs! *

tanhuijuan.
i haven't change. i'm still the tanmeijing you love.

8 years ago, i'm the joleen you know and 8 years later, i'm still the same joleen you love.
so dont worry. you're my best friend still. nothing gonna change. i wont leave you ok (:
muacks. LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU! OKAY!
and seriously i think that othniel should hesitate for a sec before he decide to tell you that ah tanhuijuan!

yongjun sent me a song. nono i asked for the song from him. MENJAGA HATI. damn nice eh. :D
thou i dont know what does it mean lahs!
shall ask my dad. :)
ok. 3am. really. i'm shaggard.
sunday = family day! means will have to get up damn early for breakfast and walk walk by the seaside or what. woo. i think i will be just like a living dead tml morning .

CIAOS~