i cant believe i cried. i brokedown today. i called TWINNY dear. and i sat there and cried. i finally brokedown. i cannot remember when was the last time i brokedown. the results don't really affect me at all. because i've expected it. so don't ask me why do i still cry. ITS OBVIOUS! :/ everytime i said that i'm afraid to fall in love. i cant love anymore, but i'd still fall. what the hell. i've to act. act asif i dont care. i dont give a damn to what i saw. what i've heard.i've been suppressing.i'm losing myself.its really karma! this is how i hurt those guys who loved me in the past. and now i'm getting this back. like 1000 times as many, as torturing.i even said that i wanna fight for it. i dont want to wait for miracles to happen. i've lose faith in miracles. but everything seems bleak now. i couldnt see any hope.but i'm reluctant to give up.i dont want to. i want to try. until the day my heart die of depression.but seriously, i've to thank all my darlings. they have been so supportive that i said i'm sad,they're willing to come over to meet me and accompany me. thou they never really did. hahas. but still it's the thoughts that count. (:

meanwhile i want to concentrate on my studies. i dont want to flunk any other modules. i dont wanna think too much again.analysing and categorising all my troubles. =.=

sunday
went somewhere near bugis to have our breakfast.
every sunday family day daddy will bring us around for good food.
this time round, they saw this stall of bah chor mee on teewee program.
WTH. SUCKS LORRS! NOT NICE AT ALL! feel like vommitting. but papa's golden words.
DONT WASTE FOOD. then i had to SWALLOW it down. and i really did. then papa drove us to the usual hang out every sunday. upper pierce seletar. this time round we saw LOTSA MONKEYS!!!!!!!!!! SO CUTE! walk around. blowing bubbles. as usual lahs. i'm a drama mama person.must act abit of those drama scenes. hahas.and they immediately act asif they dont know me. and i've to hug my daddy to show that i'm his beloved. :P
i'm lazy to blog about it lahs. let the pictures do the talking shall we? :X














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